My Mind Is A Rollercoaster and I’m Just Along for The Ride…A Day in The Life of a Complex Mind

My mind is like a maze, misleading and mesmerizing

Thoughts that once seemed so understandable, are now a blur

One minute you know exactly where you’re going, the next, nothing around you seems to make sense

Not realizing that what now doesn’t make sense is exactly what needs to be left behind

At times, these thoughts could kill

But at times, these thoughts could save

Happiness, sadness, anger, and fear; A day in the life of a complex mind

An emotional recipe for both disaster and inspiration

Climbing through the darkest thoughts

Spiraling down in to the bottomless pit I know as my mind

Then suddenly, it happens; something clicks

The flame that once flickered so frantically is now steady, I can breathe

Drowning in laughter, pure euphoria

With a smile as big as the sun

Emotions so strong, and feelings so passionate

These thoughts could move mountains

Being human is strange; being human is beautiful

When the mind is allowed to experience every emotion, that is what it means to be alive


For the love of fitness

This is just a nice expressive entry on the world of fitness and why I am so passionate about it 🙂

2 years ago….maybe 3, eh I’m going to go with 2, I can be bad with time. Any who, I was having awful back pain and after 6 months of it my grandma convinced me to get an MRI and a check up. Glad I did because I found out I have scoliosis, genetically acquired from my beautiful grandma haha. Except hers is a 51 degree curve, i’m not sure how she even walks. I have it in my thoracic and lumbar region at 22 degrees and at 17 degrees. She had my Dr, Dr. Shea, prescribe me physical therapy. I never knew how much this would change my life. 3 days a week for as long as needed, I ended going for almost a whole year. I started getting stronger and more confident and decided to get a gym membership. I began weight lifting routinely after ending therapy and I was hooked. I absolutely fell in love with it. I had always been tiny my whole life, weighing 95 pounds at my heaviest. Unfortunately due to certain addictions (drugs) and habits my lowest weight as a teen was 80 pounds, it was not okay. I began gaining healthy weight and noticing a difference internally and externally. Building muscle and gaining some fat helped me reach 120 pounds! I have never felt better, more, confident, and wholesome. Fitness was exactly what I had been looking for, I just didn’t know it. Here I am now, a couple years later, still in love. I am now attending college for exercise and sports studies and will hopefully have my associate degree in the fall, and my bachelor degree the fall after that. There are so many things I want to do in this life of mine, fitness and helping people are definitely apart of that. Health is such a beautiful thing.